Mr Big paws is with Liz he crossed the rainbow bridge this morning.
Just putting this out there no tears we’re having good memories because he was the best boy for fifteen years. I do remember it was a Saturday morning may 2007 and we were at the farmers market restaurant having breakfast and Liz came back with a phone number from a flyer that was pinned on the public board.
She said look sitting down to finish her breakfast can’t remember what Liz ordered that morning probably Eggs Benedict her favorite. Look at this showing me the flyer purebred golden’s $200 no papers we should go look. On the way I called and the sellers informed us they had two males left.
I stopped and got couple hundred out of the ATM , seriously we are not the let’s just go and look kind of hoomans. We showed up and there was momma and poppa golden and two male pups out of a litter I think of 14. And Liz and 18 who was 3 then chose Big paws even as pup his paws were huge. I often thought same with Liz we should got his brother that day as well.
Then life began and over the years big paws was never homesick the first few days he was all mommies Liz. And we used to joke that his motto was I love her because her name is mommy.
Now I look back he slept with her on my side of the bed because a lot of nights. I’d be on linehaul maybe running a lay down to perhaps Indy or north reading Massachusetts or somewhere or turning on the metro wheel bouncing around the Boroughs north Jersey Long Island.
Big paws loved us all yet he bonded with the love of his life and I would joke that I was the third wheel. Seriously I’d sit say on couch and just to get him going I’d throw a blanket over Liz and I and we would make loud kissing noises and he would be beside himself with jealousy. Barking unhand her man as he would literally crawl under the blanket and sit between us I’m here for you to protect your honor from the man.
He was the gentlest soul we ever knew I remember one morning on the back porch watching him admire a baby bunny wagging his tail. Then later barking warnings at the rabbits because Boog was loose in the yard run bunnies the chocolate beast will kill you.
Even in his elderly years he would bark I need to go out and we would help him rise because of arthritis. And lover boy loved Nana Liz’s mother oh they would sit on the couch together watching the view or a soap opera or jeopardy. I remember once years ago nana fell asleep petting her grand dog and he started barking at her keep petting me she actually apologized to him.
He knew nana was Liz’s mom we used to say Nana was his mother also grandma ordered us both from the baby store back in 68 Big paws followed Nanas and her name is mommy rules order must be kept.
Then you had the Boog you know Nana you remind me of the lady I can’t actually put my paw on it yet why it’s all the quaint sayings you and lady use on me. Boog you asshole dog get out of the trash or you chocolate spawn of Satan you get down from the counter leave those Christmas cookies alone. Boog dammit drop the cat stop picking the cat up by her head Boog get your fucking ass down from there stop trying to eat the fish food container.
Mr Big paw was comfortable with order and rules Boog was chaos. We been sleeping downstairs in shifts days off different schedule we were close with him and this morning I heard him barking around 02:30 and I helped him up he got a drink. And went outside really staggering falling I helped him up in yard. He fell again in kitchen poor guy I didn’t know it fell in his crap in yard this morning as I helped him up in kitchen.
Cleaning his fur getting the shit off him with wipes this morning yea his stomach was bloated really hard he started to vomit I ran to get 18 up. We put Big paws in a bed sheet and put him in backseat of Jetta was hoping he would pass in car alone with 18 and me he was a fighter in hanging on 18 sat with him backseat I drove touching my best boy between the seats.
And off to 24 hour emergency vet clinic. He saw 18 and i as they gave him sedative 05:18 then the shot he knew we were with him the vet said he’s gone. Tears yet 18 and I knew he was with Liz in my head and heart I’m still married to her. She’s there in some dimension I’m here yet big paws is now with her.
We went to I hop to have a meal to honor the golden boy the waitress asked if 18 was ok he had tears we explained. In car on way home I realized we took the same ride in November when hospital called 21:30 come quick your wife is in distress. The animal clinic is right down the road from the hospital been shit seven eight months losing Liz then Boog the chocolate lab and now lover boy.
We will cry for few days because dogs are the best people then we just gotta move out and move on cuz truthfully I know he’s with Liz and that makes me feel ok.
Even Dunc pup he understands and is low key this morning especially hanging with 18 when we got home licking his boys tear’s sitting on the couch.
Thanks for reading though the bad punctuation and dyslexia yet the world just needed to know about Mr Big paws.
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Beautiful memories thanks for sharing.
You certainly (your family) gave him the best world a dog could have.
Thanks for sharing.
Offering you and your family sincerest condolences on the passing of your dear Mr. Big Paws.
May he rest in peace along side his Mommy.
TY for sharing this part of your life with us. As you said. Dogs are the best people
Heavens Paw by Adam Thomas
Because pets bring us so much joy in their way. They become family. They have souls. They have personalities that enhance our lives in so many ways. And when they are gone, we mourn them.
Hugs to you and to all who have lost a furry member of their families.
May your memories bring you peace.
But it sure sounds like you gave him the kind of life that all pups deserve, attention, a loving family and so much love. He was so fortunate to have had you... Thank you for sharing him with us. 
We know the grief you're feeling and are so very sorry.
Hugging my Miss Big Paws (big chunky Lab) here & thinking of you & your family.
I know he won't be forgotten but frame a pic of him anyway.
The loss of loved pet is so difficult. They are such a big part of our lives. My heart goes out to you and your family.
it's too much all in a row. It's complicated, grieving still then having more loss piled on more loss. it's not fair.
BTW I spent 2 hours cleaning up dog hair in the house and then 30 minutes walking my
lab this AM and then I read your post and figured that "my work" is good duty to have.
Please post when you get your next puppy.
Too much grief in such a short time...take very good care of yourself now, and always!
It's just about the worst thing ever, losing our fur babies.
Best wishes to you and your family.
MBP
I’m so sorry. Peaceful vibes to you and 18.
Hugs.
I am so sorry, Duncan
Saying goodbye even when you know it’s the only thing left to do is never easy. Not EVER.
It just means you loved and were loved a lot. He’ll probably meet Goldie and Checkers up there at some point.
, He is with Liz and Boog, watching over you and your Family
Take Care
...and you him. So lovely he can now be with his mommy.
So very sorry for your loss.
grieving, especially our last remaining cat. He is the youngest of 3 male cats (he's 14) and he is so lonely, going to all the places where his older brothers hung out, looking for them. He went to the vet the other day and was so sad when he came home because there was nobody he could talk to about his adventure.
I told DH we need to go look for a 5 y/o cat so he can have someone to snuggle with - he has glommed onto me and I can't get anything done because he is right there on me and he has never been a lap cat. He's always been around in the general area cat.
Again, major condolences to your family
