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unhappycamper

(60,364 posts)
Fri Feb 22, 2013, 11:11 AM Feb 2013

'I'm a monster': Veterans 'alone' in their guilt

http://www.examiner.org/newsx/ap-news/21093-i-m-a-monster-veterans-alone-in-their-guilt



In this Oct. 16, 2011, photo, former Marine Capt. Timothy Kudo sits outside his apartment in the Brooklyn borough of New York. Kudo walks among civilians carrying a burden of guilt most Americans don’t want to share. A veteran of the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, Kudo thinks of himself as a killer. "I can't forgive myself ... and the people who can forgive me are dead," he says. Over this decade's wars, there’s been an unprecedented explosion of study into warzone psychology and an evolving understanding of post-traumatic stress disorder.

'I'm a monster': Veterans 'alone' in their guilt
Created on Friday, 22 February 2013
Written by PAULINE JELINEK,Associated Press

WASHINGTON (AP) — A veteran of the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, former Marine Capt. Timothy Kudo thinks of himself as a killer — and he carries the guilt every day.

"I can't forgive myself," he says. "And the people who can forgive me are dead."

With American troops at war for more than a decade, there's been an unprecedented number of studies into war zone psychology and an evolving understanding of post-traumatic stress disorder. Clinicians suspect some troops are suffering from what they call "moral injuries" — wounds from having done something, or failed to stop something, that violates their moral code.

Though there may be some overlap in symptoms, moral injuries aren't what most people think of as PTSD, the nightmares and flashbacks of terrifying, life-threatening combat events. A moral injury tortures the conscience; symptoms include deep shame, guilt and rage. It's not a medical problem, and it's unclear how to treat it, says retired Col. Elspeth Ritchie, former psychiatry consultant to the Army surgeon general.

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'I'm a monster': Veterans 'alone' in their guilt (Original Post) unhappycamper Feb 2013 OP
Thank you, unhappy camper... nenagh Feb 2013 #1
The true impact of war can not be measured... DreamGypsy Feb 2013 #2
k and r and thank you for this post niyad Feb 2013 #3
How must they feel when they read the war was a hoax? felix_numinous Feb 2013 #4
Great article Victor_c3 Feb 2013 #5
Don't mean nothin... n/t unhappycamper Feb 2013 #6

nenagh

(1,925 posts)
1. Thank you, unhappy camper...
Fri Feb 22, 2013, 11:40 AM
Feb 2013

I think that is an article filled with wisdom...



Tears for the troops who feel emotionally so torn apart..

And the hierarchy prefer them to keep quiet...

DreamGypsy

(2,252 posts)
2. The true impact of war can not be measured...
Fri Feb 22, 2013, 01:22 PM
Feb 2013

...only in lives lost, or grieving families and friends, or property destroyed, or dollars spent, or years wasted.

We are only starting to find measures for effects of war that crush the human spirit, of the warriors, of the victims, and of the countries, government, religions, and peoples that engage in the conflict.

When will we ever learn? When...

felix_numinous

(5,198 posts)
4. How must they feel when they read the war was a hoax?
Fri Feb 22, 2013, 02:58 PM
Feb 2013

I cannot imagine. Yet another reason war criminals must be prosecuted.

Victor_c3

(3,557 posts)
5. Great article
Fri Feb 22, 2013, 05:12 PM
Feb 2013

Thanks for posting this.

I've started to want to talk about the war more and more to my family, the people I work with, and the people I know, but it seems that most people don't want to hear anything about it. It makes them uncomfortable and, in the end, it makes me feel awkward. I know at some point that I should move on with my life, but that is much easier said than done. It has been about 9 years since I was still in Iraq and much of it is still constantly on my mind and my thoughts even though I'm far removed from any previous associations I have with the military and the people I knew at the time.

There is so much I want to say, but nobody I know seems to wants to listen which in the end just makes me feel even more isolated.

To quote one of my idols and favorite authors (Kurt Vonnegut): "So it goes."

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