No. I'm an atheist.

that created us... the earth, physics, time, through evolution? I am also atheist. It's a definition thing.

With a bit of Gaia worship tossed in. You might also be an atheist if it is just “awe” you are talking about and not gods.

I am as atheist as one can be and not be illogical. No evidence, no supernatural being. If the evidence changes, I'll change. The ignostic in me says the word god has never properly been defined.

Won't let anyone else in my religion, it's just for me. So I'll be the only one in my heaven.

Perfectly natural side-effect of the events you mention. Our brains are capable of many things. Releasing endorphins at these special moments sounds like the most likely cause of your euphoric reactions.

I can't say I'd ascribe it to any higher power.

I just redefine the term as a point of view. You have to admit that humans are not more than a blip in earth's history let alone the universe. That leaves everything a higher power ultimately as we hobble through a point in time.

I had not read this one.

Would you consider editing your OP a bit so that it's not so confusing?

Thanks.

If I failed to make my point in the OP I'll just take my lumps. But I kind of like it as is. I'll look it over again.

Maybe I made it worse.

I'm quite comfortable in my belief that everything is probabilistic and random. Contemplating a higher power leans toward some guided, deterministic view that just isn't realistic.

I don’t ascribe to anything deterministic. 12VDC at 10 amps is a higher power than 6VDC at 1 amp. That's my only analogical definition of higher power. As I was trying to allude in the op, there is no higher being. Maybe I failed in the attempt but it was a creative way to deal with feeling compared to reason.

Your post reminded me. Thank you.

outside of your (our) brain, right?

I carefully reread your post because it can be a bit confusing because of your use of the word god, especially your capitalization of that word.

Yes, I have. I've been "there," in that mental place. But in no way do I believed in god or a god of any kind but I can understand how some people can identify their very intense existential feelings with what they perceive as some kind of supernatural force. There is no supernatural anything. There is only nature, which includes the chemistry of our brains which can imbue us with all kinds of feelings.

Please don't confuse that feeling or use the word god to describe it.

But the word god is a word. I'm redefining it. If someone attributes god to a supernatural being, I'm trying to show that their sense of awe is natural within our own brain as their mind tries to define what they feel and observe... as it tries to make symmetry out of chaos.
You may be right about capitalization but I don’t have much fear for words. It's still not illogical in a creative sense. Anyway, theists who read this with a capital G might be confused just a little; maybe it will help.

I ask because a phrase like "...I don't have much fear for words" might have lost a bit of meaning in translation.

I don't fear words... I have no fear of words... I don't distance myself from using words... whatever works.

Usually when seeing a really beautiful place. It's easy to feel awe while in the outdoors. But I attribute it to nature. The earth is nature and the earth is alive.

While on LSD I have felt strong sensations of oneness with the universe. It's been a long while since I've had any, but I can still remember the feelings.

I would love to experience ayahuasca, but not having any luck so far.

Consuming mind-altering substances is as old as the hills and probably what prompted the bible in the first place.

but oh, I have been tempted. Had something been available to me at certain times in my life I gladly would have indulged.

... because they can at least see their deity!

Seriously,

Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too? -- Douglas Adams

I don’t think you read anything except the title.

You wrote this:

This leads me to name God. It's none other than the physics of the universe and importantly the earth from which we evolved. It's not a mind or a being, it's greater than that. It's the perfect intellect of time, physics, matter and its creation. It doesn't demand worship, only respect. It doesn't demand immediacy but it won't be ignored.

“Some people have views of God that are so broad and flexible that it is inevitable that they will find God wherever they look for him. One hears it said that 'God is the ultimate' or 'God is our better nature' or 'God is the universe.' Of course, like any other word, the word 'God' can be given any meaning we like. If you want to say that 'God is energy,' then you can find God in a lump of coal.” -- Steven Weinberg

If you carry preconceived notions of the definition into it, ones that make you uncomfortable, your likely to read into it what you wish and miss the point while you're arguing a point that's not there. It is confusing.

You didn’t refute anything, just read your own bias into it. I'm no pantheist. I'm just trying my hand at rearranging a concept that won't go away by reconnecting it with the human perceptions from which it likely evolved in the first place then calling it what it really is. I'm only doing this exercise because the word god won't go away, unfortunately.

Thanks for the reply.