I have alerted on this hopefully admin can direct resources to you.

Take care of yourself, and reach out...

seek help. People need you

I understand.

Breathe. Give it a bit. Hang out here with all of us.

I do not want you leaving us. K?

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Please call 911

Please get some mental health provider on the line!

1 (800) 273-8255

It will be a nice surprise. Somebody who does care.

Find where you live on this list.. Please call someone... You can never undo this. The collateral damage is as severe.

I don't know you but I am your friend right now..


http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/minnesota-suicide-hotlines.html


Please consider everyone's advice here.

There are people there who can help

Please, please, please call someone: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/are-you-thinking-about-suicide-or-self-harm/helping-yourself-when-you-are-suicidal

https://randrewohge.wordpress.com/2015/08/04/the-morning-after-i-killed-myself-by-maggie-royer/

http://www.nami.org/Find-Support/Living-with-a-Mental-Health-Condition/What-to-Do-In-a-Crisis

http://www.helpguide.org/home-pages/suicide-prevention.htm

Call a hotline now

But I have gotten help and I am much better. If you can't find a professional to talk to immediately, find someone you can be with and maybe talk to. I know it feels like a monumental task to pick up the phone, but you can do it. DU cares about you!

Please, please call someone.

I've felt that way before..I understand.

Please do not do this.....

Call the hotline number supplied or a friend or neighbour, or cab, to take you in to the ER. It's going to be ok ... just hang on.

I ask because the site admins might have this person's real name and location, which could be used to call the police in his/her area. Would hitting "alert abuse" accomplish this, or would that just get the post hidden?

Have pm'd Skinner.

I promise you. Take the advice here and put yourself in the hands of those who can and will help.

There are people who can help. There are people who care.

This is temporary.

Call 1 (800) 273-8255.

I know it is probably scary to take that first step, but you are deserving of help. We all are.

it is a good sign that you made this post. Call the hotlines or talk to someone in person. This too shall pass

i hope you'll be ok and believe you can be.

I don't know whether to believe you, but, why? Why do you feel this way. It won't spoil anyone's fun, it won't hurt anyone but you. A PERMANANT SOLUTION TO A TEMORARY PROBLEM! By experience, it helps to elaborate and talk about it. Whether to a person, letter to yourself, or to your Higher Power, been there...long ago.

Stay with us. You are a good person and your life matters.

We're with you in spirit

http://www.matthaig.com/reasons-to-stay-alive/

http://livethroughthis.org/

http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/suicidal-feelings/#.VuByb_krKM8

http://www.sfu.ca/carmha/publications/coping-with-suicidal-thoughts.html

http://www.psychalive.org/coping-suggestions-for-the-suicidal-person/

http://www.getselfhelp.co.uk/suicidal.htm

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Remember: You've felt better. You can again. Find someone to talk with. Doesn't have to be a counselor or expert of any sort, though that may be best.

Just remember:

It doesn't have to be like this.
All we need to do is make sure we keep talking.

Yes ... a thousand times yes.

I am sorry to hear you are struggling. I had severe depression for about 2 years in the 2008-2010 time frame. I gradually got better and the depression has not returned. I was prescribed antidepressants at one point but never started on them. I have a niece who has struggled with depression and gotten better with the help of antidepressants. I am by no means qualified to give much advice but one thing I will advise, that is pretty much universally recommended, is to get regular exercise if you are physically able to. It releases endorphins which are good for your mental health and may help you sleep better.

I mainly just wanted to let you know there are many of us out here who have suffered from depression and recovered. You can too.

You need to talk to someone..call the mental help line in your community. You can make it over this hill. I do understand what depression is. Talk to someone so it can lift. Also you might have a medical condition that needs to be looked at. We must continue to hear your THUNDER!

we are going to win, you know. This is a world of many wonders, and most far thinkers see great things for humanity ahead in spite of all.

I don't know if anyone told you to back off from following politics closely, but yes definitely do that. Get too close and it starts seeming even dirtier and nastier than it actually is, blocking off the big picture that lends perspective -- and realistic hope.

Take proper care of yourself. Please.

lives. Mine, and our children's. I know sometimes words mean crap, but I sure wish I could take away the look on our little boy's face that day.

If you can't care about you, grab hold of the image of someone you can care about. You will destroy the rest of their life. Hell, you will destroy mine.

afsp.org

~Laura

Please know you aren't alone. There's a world of people who care about you here

Don't leave us. We need you. This WILL pass.

Even though we're total assholes to one another often, we come together when it counts.

This could just be some bad chemistry going on in your head that can be improved with medication.

You have nothing to lose by doing as folks have suggested above.

Please give it a try.

Please stay with us.

In the name of that great progressive Paul Wellstone, please stay with us.
Please!

From a bipolar perspective. I know its hard to even come up with the energy to call a help-line, and answer all their questions. You'd rather just vegetate and sink further. You're tired of it all. The best solution can be to call someone you know who will show up at your front door immediately and start making phone calls and appointments FOR you, then actually take you to the appointment, and make sure you get the meds you need. Then they annoyingly check on you everyday to make sure you are taking them, and improving. Ready to jump in again if needed. Your partner? Your mom/dad? Siblings? Friends? Kids?

These are the same people who will be devastated for the rest of THEIR lives if you check out.

Think about it this way. Your situation may be genetic (mine is), with a chemical imbalance in your brain. Would you not go to the doctor and get insulin if you were diabetic? I dealt with this for years before I finally snapped, and ended up in intensive care for a week. Trust me, its not worth it. I lost my health, lots of ignorant friends, my farm, and my now-ex-husband of 30 years (not such a great loss there. He stole everything I owned and split while I was in the hospital).

I'm finally in a good place again. New farm, and the love of my life in my home state. I look back at the dark times, and frankly don't remember a lot of it. Medication did indeed save my life.

PM me. I'd be more than happy to talk to you.

I know "hope" can seem like an empty word to someone who's feeling suicidal, but it is so true that light really can come after the dark. It's so hard to hang on but so worth it.

I'm so glad you're happy now.

Also, kick. I've been worrying ever since the original post and I hope we get an update soon.

Do NOT give up. There is help out there. Please call 911, The Suicide Prevention hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or try their website: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetInvolved/Locator . Things may seem difficult right now, I've been there, but please don't give up, we care .

Feelings change.
Big big hugs

DU is wishing you all kinds of goodness friend!

I'd like to say I'm sorry you had to see that but I'm not. It sux to hellanback wrestling these demons in my head with nothing but four walls to bang my head against. I wouldn't wish this on anybody. Thanks for your concern. I need more people and less medication in my life.

Glad you're still here.

Hang in there.

You're not alone. I'm here anytime you want to talk.

who can offer friendship, advice or just a virtual Take them up on their friendship, listen to their advice and accept their hugs.

Hope your day is going better.

But things will get better, you have to believe that, there are people who care, some you will never meet in person, this thread is proof of that.

Life can be frightening, frustrating and sometimes lonely; but the alternative is worse. Reach out to someone, please don't think that there's no one out there to listen to you.

Posting here is a first step. Is there someone who you are close to on DU? Send them a private message.

I've been going through some things of my own that have gotten me down, but today was lovely day. It was a glorious, unusually warm day for this time of the year in NJ. Just going outside and putting my face up to the sun made me feel good and grateful to be alive.

When life gets to me, I repeat in my head: "This too shall pass". It helps me to keep things in perspective.

Hang in there, you are worth it!!!

We care. You aren't alone

Please reach out for help -here or with the hotlines

Pm me any time. I mean it.

Lost two good friends in the last year, was praying you'd make it.

I know that hopeless feeling, like you're falling into a bottomless black pit.

Better times always come, my friend.

Damn glad to see you here!

I'm glad that you reached out and hope that you continue to do so . I know how hard it is and have also struggled with depression. I had to learn to reach out and ask for help and am glad that I did. Eventually I learned to appreciate the good times and hold on to them during the bad days. I wish you the best. Keep reaching out.

otherwise, you would not have posted this OP.

Lots of good suggestions and contact numbers in this thread. Use as many of them as you can.

Get any kind of help you can.

Get through this tunnel.

Come out the other side.

Your life awaits you.

It will surprise you.

You are not alone.

Bring yourself through this.

It's worth it.

Life can be tricky, frightening, unpleasant, painful, and frustrating. It can also be, joyful, lovely, exciting, and wonderful.

Most of the time it's a combination of all of the above and more.

But, as has been pointed out in other replies, it's usually both and nothing lasts forever except...perhaps...death.

..."Suicide is a permanent 'solution' to a temporary problem."

I've been way, way down in the pits in the past. You can't always dig yourself out, by yourself. Therefore, I of course agree with everyone else here: please call someone. Family, friend, or a suicide hotline.

I'm going to relate the following story in hopes it will help you a little bit, to see the reality that it is almost certainly not as bad, objectively, as you feel it is:

Years ago, when I lived in the Bay Area, there was a series of articles about possibly putting up suicide barriers on the Golden Gate Bridge. One of the stories was of a 15-year-old boy who jumped; he was one of the few who survived. He said that, the very moment he jumped, he regretted it.

Just try and remember that. And please, please call someone.

...Call ANYONE... Or walk out your front door and go to a restaurant or coffee shop, or a neighbor's house or that of a family member or friend... to reorient yourself and to get back in touch with reality.

Just hearing another human voice can be very grounding when you find yourself in this moment that you're finding yourself in.

I have a thing I call the 24 hour clause.--->> Any time I find myself in your shoes,... the very instant that I recognize my thought situation, I automatically enact what I call the "24 hour clause," where I am from that moment forward in a pact with myself not to move forward with my plan for a minimum of 24 hours.

So far, this agreement with myself has never let me down. I make this pact with myself because I never want to wake up dead, on the wrong side of the veil, going, "Shit, I wish I had that to do over." The 24 hour clause has saved me more than once, and I've never regretted waiting the required 24 hours... because every day begins anew.

Every morning is a new and fresh start to the beginning of the rest of your life.

The most important person in this world and the only one you owe anything to is yourself. Make this 24 hour pact with yourself because you deserve the exact same loving advice that you would offer in a heartbeat to another person that you might encounter, walking in your same shoes.

You deserve the "24 hour clause" in your life.

You are loved.

TYY

there are hands everywhere. Please call someone.

Thanks logical. Or call 911 and insist on EMS not PD

Don't feel bad for reaching out.

Force your self to go for a walk, to keep reaching out.

I know when I feel depressed and like screaming at life if I can make myself get out for a walk i always feel better after.

My hubby called a suicide hotline when he was at his worst and i wasn't home. He didn't want to go to counceling but i got him to go at least enough to feel better.

Hang in there...

Maybe send a PM and tell him to hang in there. My contact with him is new and brief, so I don't know much. I'm hoping for more.

Please send up a flare. We care about you.