I am intrigued by Mark Judge's vacillating conscience. [View all]

Dr. Blasey Ford testified that she caught Judge’s eye during the assault and thought that he might help her. She also testified that he vacillated between encouraging Kavanaugh and trying to stop Kavanaugh from what he was doing. It’s also interesting that the thing that finally freed Dr. Blasey Ford from the bedroom was Judge jumping on the bed and bouncing everyone onto the floor.

Judge obviously seemed conflicted in the moment and what other reason could there have been for him to jump on the bed with enough force to cause two other people to be knocked to the floor? I think that he wanted to maintain his buddy-buddy relationship with Kavanaugh while preventing an assault of this poor young girl. He may have found the only solution that satisfied both desires.

I think Kavanaugh was the ring leader and Judge the sidekick. There are plenty of young male relationships that mimic this exact dynamic. I think that Judge may have had a conscience early on and who knows what happened after that point. Judge may have gone along to get along the rest of their friendship.

If you look at Judge’s life trajectory, he went on to write about many terrible events that he participated in in an almost confessional sort of way that was obviously pretty thinly veiled. He self-medicated his conscience with alcohol because maybe he felt that he had done things that he felt guilty for doing. Today, he seems like a broken person whose life is floundering.

Now this is entirely speculation but certainly plausible. And, if I were to give Mark Judge advice, I’d say unload the burden of your sins and confess to everything you and Kavanaugh did and make things right. Healing can’t begin until you open yourself to your own past and begin to make restitution. Try and show as much courage as your victim showed this week after suffering for decades. You may have unintentionally or intentionally been the hero and Dr. Blasey Ford may not even know what you did for her.