Cancer Support

radiation. Oncologist says I'm gonna die, but it will probably be from something else besides metastasized breast cancer. It does look like they got it all, I have been following all the instructions and taking all the meds, and the tumor type is one that has a low chance of re-occurrence, but I still know and fear the fact that it can always come back.

I don't have actual dreams about it coming back, but I do have moments when I wake up early, or am trying to go to sleep, where I worry about it returning. In fact, right now I have some pain in my right flank that I am having checked out next Thurs. It's probably a muscle pull or a kidney stone, but I fear it might be a tumor in my kidney and my docs tell me that I have a right to be paranoid. I'm glad I have understanding docs.